GOOD NEWS!

I had my first visit with the PT today and she is very optimistic about me running!! You have no idea how happy I am today! I still can't start training again, which means I loose out on training time but the fact that I can train is music to my ears!

I have to start slowly and not progress so quickly. Which means it's going to be a few weeks until I am able to run 6 miles again. That part sucks, but I shouldn't complain. I am so excited!!!

I can only run one or two miles for now but it's better than nothing. I can't start until next week but I'll be ready. I've sort of been drowning my sorrows with bad food and a bad attitude. Poor Peter. He'll be happy to hear this too! ;)

Week Four: Bad News

Went to the doctor yesterday...

The good news, I am not dying. Not that I thought I was or anything but it's always good news. The bad news is that I can't run or do any activity that puts pressure on my knee for 10 days. I also will have to go to physical therapy for my knee and the doctor doesn't want me running until 30 days to see if there's improvement.

How the hell does this happen? I am really bummed out about it and feeling sort of down. It wasn't what I wanted to hear. I don't even know what to do. I went this weekend to look for shoes and almost bought some too. I almost dropped $100 on shoes that I don't even need anymore.

Another reason I didn't buy shoes: Luke's Locker people are rude. I guess I didn't look like a runner and they decided not to take me seriously when I went to get my stride analyzed. The dude didn't even acknowledge Peter either. So as much as I loved the shoes I wasn't going to give money to that place. No thank you Luke's Locker, I will find them someplace else.

Ok, I am not giving up. Maybe with PT my knee will get better and I can train again. Maybe it's just really inflamed and I'll be good. I am trying to be positive.

A part of me just wants to ignore what the Doc said but I don't know. I am so confused.

I am so disappointed and sad but I guess I just need to be thankful for other things, like having legs, legs, I can't run on. Ok, let me try that again. I am thankful for being able to have the ability to run if I needed to?

My life is good. I have a crazy adorable family. The best husband ever who even ran with me on Sunday. He ran the whole 6 miles with me! Now that's love! He does the laundry when I sleep, buys me bags of ice and makes me hot tea, gives me massages whenever I ask for one and he is the best dad in the world. Plus, he makes dinner every night because A. he's an amazing cook and B. he knows how much I don't like to cook and finally C. he actually wants to be able to actually eat the food.

I love him.

Then there's my two awesome daughters. Lauren, she's smart, funny, deep, and super sweet. Sometimes she scares us when she says or dreams of things that haven't happened yet but it makes us laugh the world too.

Then my Little Reagy Roo...Man that girl knows what she wants. She was just born that way. She is so smart and cleaver and feisty as all hell. She's little but I am scared of her...And to make it even harder, she's so cute. Ugh.

I am thankful for my life. Even if I can't run.

Right now...

Ten days from now I will be this happy again!

I am doing this though. I am going to rest the 10 days but that's it.

~bev